Foul
I'm in a fucking foul mood this morning. Everything seems wrong in my life and I don't feel that I'm in any position to do a goddamned thing about any of it. I feel like I'm trying and maybe I'm not or maybe I just don't know what I'm doing, both of which are likely. The bad thing is that I can see solutions to issues, but I don't have any way of executing them. I'm feeling really trapped and pinned in, and I'm having trouble seeing how things are going to change in the foreseeable future.
I'm tired of being ignored and this situation seems to be happening a lot lately in several different areas of my existence. This is probably my own fault and I've definitely felt like I've had little of interest to talk about or more to the point I've felt totally incapable of expressing my thoughts in a coherent way. When I do attempt conversation it always comes out garbled and pointless, a sort of rambling morass that I only seem to sink myself deeper into while someone looks on with growing pity and/or escapism.