Cathartics
I can't comprehend all these things going through my mind
I'm just a peasant scratching my life from the earth
Leaning and yearning for your big shoulder to lean on
Big brother be there for me to fall on,
Though I do hate you so much
You ate me whole
You've taken my soul
I wail and I cry
Pain is everything I know
I'm aching and I'm crying
Tears are on my face
How can this all be over?
Everything we made
Has crumbled away
And I'm left here
Holding the pieces
Is that what I'm holding?
Was it ever that much
To hold in my own hands
I lied for every part of you
I cried for all your pain
I suffered under you
Stifling myself for you
I became nothing for you
A shadow in the desert
I died for you
And here I am now
Picking up the pieces
Of myself, but not for you
Not anymore
I am my own now
And you can fuck off
But you won't go away
You'll linger in me
Testing and teasing me
Forever doubting me
I'm nothing now
But what I make
Of my fucking self
I'd condemn you to hell
If it was in my power
But I'm small right here
God damn it
I'm still here